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What’s your biggest remaining challenge?

Anticipating a big loss tomorrow… (the good kind of loss)

Well, with no conscious effort, I think I’m going to ring in a big loss tomorrow on the scale.

(Let’s hope I’m not humbled and end up with egg on my face and a gain, eh?)

And I don’t mean “no conscious effort” in a bad way. It’s been effortless in a good way. I’m getting over being sick, so starting to feel better. We got through some difficult situations at work and home, so don’t have that dread anticipation going on. I’m looking forward to actually being able to breath enough to exercise for real again tomorrow. I haven’t really thought about eating, dieting, food, etc., well, at all all week.

This intuitive eating thing has freed me of some weight but more importantly has freed me from obsessing and thinking about food constantly. In the past, I’d think about food as much when I was dieting as not. Even more. But now, I’m living my life. Without food being the center. Without food being the answer. Without food being the escape, the comfort. the need.

I’m eating what I want. Even chocolate. But I’m just not as needy.

And I finally living out (as opposed to intellectualizing/analyzing) that food is not a good way to deal with stress — it just makes it worse. And heaven knows I don’t need any more of that.

I don’t feel deprived. I feel nurtured. In spite of the ups and downs of recent weeks.

Food is becoming divorced, decoupled, disassociated from dysfunctional coping methods.

Have I entered some strange parallel universe of normalcy?

Come see me tomorrow and see how this week went, in the end.

Fri, November 21 2008 » Progress

2 Responses

  1. julie November 28 2008 @ 6:21 pm

    I’m feeling similarly, and it’s quite a mindtrip. I’m down 20, and not suffering at all. I’ve been practicing gentle discipline along with intuitive eating, sounds like you are too.

  2. Alexia November 29 2008 @ 12:05 am

    Isn’t it, though! Yep, that’s exactly what I’m doing.